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How Do You Know When Something Is Finished?
August 2004
This month: Betty Winslow, Colin Berry, Chuck Markee,
Christine Falcone, D. Jayhne Wilson Edwards, Lizzie
Hannon, Marlene Cullen
How
do I know something is finished? Well, it depends on
the project. The finishing point for an article is different
from an essay's finishing point, and poems and short
fiction pieces are even more different. And a book? I
don't have much experience yet with finishing a book
(except to read one). Someday...
Meanwhile—
I
know something is finished when I have no more to say
about the topic.
I
know it's finished when I can't polish it any more.
I
know it's finished when the deadline is now and I can't
take any more time with it (the best reason I know to
start projects way ahead, so I have time to rewrite).
I
know it's finished when it says just what it needs to
say and no more.
And
sometimes, I know it's finished when I cannot stand to
look at it one more time!
Betty Winslow, Bowling
Green, Ohio, who is finished with this now.
“How
do you know when something's finished?”
This
is one of the most difficult questions I face as a writer.
I'm extremely meticulous when I work, and find very few
stories I'm unwilling to fiddle with, even years later,
with tiny tweaks and tunings. It's painstaking, and it's
probably folly — the time I spend fiddling likely doesn't
reflect a better story — but it makes ME feel better.
Plus, it disqualifies me from having to commit to something new and
possibly even more difficult.
No,
that's a lie. It's finished at five hundred words, or
a thousand , or whatever the editor or the submission
guidelines tell you. Nothing more, nothing less. If you
write out “five hundred” it gives you one more word than “500.” It's
like that book report Lucy writes in You're
a Good Man, Charlie Brown: “It
was very very very very good.” 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49,
50! Done!
No,
sorry, that was
a lie, too. For me, it's finished in the same way it
starts, which is — how to explain it? Filamentally. In the same way a story starts long before we sit
down with our Gel Pens and Legal Pads (or our computers)
and begin to write, stories begin with a thread: a conversation
overheard, a pea-sized epiphany you have on the way to
the video store, a certain way the sun hits your wife's
neck. It might be weeks or months, but sometime later
you'll be sitting down, trying to bind that filament
with another, create a strand, then a string, then a
rope with which you can lower yourself into the story.
Finishing
works the same way. If you've done it right, the piece
dissipates like the last notes of a symphony, or a Sonic
Youth song, or the reverberation of colliding cars that
wakes you from deepest sleep: it's finished when the
echoes following that resounding CRASH fade away into
a single filament. Too much, too little, too fast — it's
easy to screw it up. But when it's right you know it,
and you stop, and lift your hand from the keys, look
at the glittering thread you've created, and whisper: Wow.
The
Japanese have a word — umami — that means the fifth taste, an essential unnamable something that rounds out the mouth, balances the palate, satisfies
us exponentially more than the basic elements (sweet/sour/salty/bitter,
plot/character/setting/dialogue) of cooking or writing
can create on their own. When it's there, we can taste
it. When a story is finished, we know it. The result
is far greater than its sum of individual components
and, like a splendid meal, doesn't happen nearly often
enough.
Colin
Berry, Guerneville, CA
Writing
is never finished and neither is any specific piece ...
BUT ... you do stop working on it because of fatigue,
deadlines, new ideas or mandatory home projects.
Chuck
(from the Kona Coast of the Big Island). He'll come home
and become Charles Markee of Santa Rosa, CA
How
do you know when something is finished?
How
do you know when something is finished? In the case of
writing: when it smells done, invites you to sink your
teeth into it like warm bread. When you can step
across the threshold that separates life from fiction
and forget entirely that you¹re in a world of words.
That means all the details have to be perfect, no penny
in the pocket like Christopher Reeves in the movie, “Somewhere
In Time.” If all those bases are covered and the
story elevates you, leaves you moved, it's done.
How
do you know when something is done? Is anything ever
really done? Aren't we just in a state of perpetual transformation?
We delude ourselves by segmenting time like the wedges
of an orange divided, crossing off days on a wall calendar,
a big black “X” for everything past, an empty white box
for what we call the future. Time is more like flowering
water, I think, unending. Like the title of Alice Walker's
recent book, “You Can't Step into the Same River Twice,” meaning:
you never get that precise moment back.
I
think writing and life are a lot like swinging on monkey
bars at the playground; you must let go of the previous
metal rung to reach ahead to the next on the horizontal
ladder above your head. But then, too, there's that moment
spent in flux, where you're dangling by one hand, the
other empty, open, reaching. Freeze, and you¹re
suspended, supported by a combination of thin air and
your own flesh and bone. Speed up to real time and you're
a blur of motion, fluid, flying, not here nor there,
but both coming and going. Letting go and holding on. We
contain all that in any given moment. As soon as
we're born we're already dying, and in death, we're merely
waiting for the Big Wagon Wheel of Life to take another
turn. So in that sense, I don¹t think you
can ever truly say a thing is “done”, only ”released”.
Christine
Falcone, Novato, CA
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN SOMETHING IS FINISHED?
I
have this place in the middle of me, somewhere, which
keeps a running tally on how near my piece is to being
finished. There is a bit of a satisfied feeling in my
chest as I near the finish line, but I believe there
is more of that feeling in the area of my stomach. Could
the actual place where points are accumulated toward
the finish be in my solar plexus? I say that, with some
wonderment, since I am not at all sure where the s.p.
is even located.
Webster's
defines the solar plexus as: "a network of nerves
at the upper part of the abdomen, behind the stomach
and in front of the aorta." Looks like I was on
the right track, after all!
O.K.,
so that establishes, for me, the location of my
own personal "finish register." But, in addition,
there are degrees toward the finish. There are
occasions when I reach the finish line with a sort of "Ho,
hum, I think this is the best I can do," OR I may
tell myself, "This is IT unless I have some better
ideas, later." But the real thrill is when I come
to the finish with a real glow of pride in that special
place I now know to be my Solar Plexus!
D.Jayhne Wilson Edwards,
Santa Rosa, Calif.
How
do you know when something is finished?
At
our house we put the wishbone aside only after giving
our Thanksgiving turkey the King Henry treatment, gnawing
it down to gristle and hide. Two or three days later
my mother would deem the dowsing bone “ready,” dried
to the correct finish for a fair tug of war between opposing
wish makers.
How
did finished look? More importantly, how did it feel?
What
I recall is the bone was exactly itself, nothing more
or less. It dried to a white patina, still held a quiver,
sent shivers down the spines of whatever pair of brother/sister
had called “dibs” this year. It felt “ready,” because
over the years my mother's eyes and hands recorded both
success, the snap of bone, it's pliant back-- versus
the rushed failures, the “v” of the bone wet and
stringy in the victor's hand. It just wasn't “right,” needed
another day sunbathing in the kitchen window on a paper
towel.
That
wishbone, its purpose and its process mirrors the steps
I take to determine if what I've written is done. I
want to allow myself the emotional satisfaction of ending
a poem, essay, short-story, savor the taste of “doing” on
my tongue without rushing out the door the very next
minute with my words on a platter, wanting the world
to feast, convincing myself its okay to pull the wishbone
now, why wait?
I'm
slowly learning to enjoy the meal, the minutes/hours
spent on a reconnaissance mission for words. I
try to recall the last time I e-mailed the first draft
of a poem to far away friends in a cloud of wonder only
to wake the next morning knowing those words were the
equivalent of a Twinkie, okay I guess, but not really
the stomach sense of sustenance, satisfaction I wanted
to deliver. I wake on that reckoning day within the flour-dusted
walls of my childhood kitchen. My mother, with her pirate's
knife, lopping off eight loaves of bread from a giant
butt of dough, her knuckles red from kneading, wanting
it all to be over, but trained to lightly cover each
fleshy thigh with a cotton towel, walk away, let the
squares rise again, her secret for success.
Patience,
practice and another set of eyes, an adult to say, “It's
ready” is becoming my recipe for a good finished product.
Sometimes the adult is my own internal editor, the coach,
the seasoned at the keyboard player who believes there's
a bit more kick to be had, urges me to come back to the
track tomorrow, try to improve my time. Often it's an
editor I trust. At least when I listen to what someone
else has to say, see what they say is missing, or believe
is still too pink at the bone, I have a choice. I can
choose to take their feedback or place my hand on my
stomach while reading the work again; full or hungry
I ask myself, full or hungry? I take it from there.
Lizzie
Hannon, Santa Rosa, CA
How
do I know when something is finished? Simple. Simple.
Simple. I don't. I did know B.K. Before Kids I could
clean my entire house in one day. I could finish a magazine
article in one sitting. I could brush my teeth . . .
in the morning. I could make my bed before noon. After
Kids it would take an entire day to fold one load of
laundry. And that was left over from the day before when
the clothes were washed and dried. Before Kids I would
plan, shop and wrap birthday presents well before the
party. After Kids, I wrapped the present in the car as
they were knocking on the birthday boy's or girl's house.
That is assuming I was able to find the present in the
store on the way to the birthday party house. Otherwise,
it was a crisp five-dollar bill tucked into the birthday
card. Okay, so sometimes it was a limp five-dollar bill.
Sigh…
And
then my kids were at school all day. “Aha,” I thought, “I'll
whip through house cleaning and laundry and errands lickety
split.” But I was so used to being interrupted, that
I started interrupting myself. I would start to make
the bed, then remember I had laundry to take out of the
dryer. I would put the clean clothes on the couch and
realize I should wash last night's dinner dishes. Then
the phone would ring and as I talked I would notice the
dust bunnies. Hanging up the phone, I would get the vacuum
cleaner out and notice the unfolded clothes. Abandoning
the vacuum cleaner, I would start to fold clothes but
remember I needed to defrost chicken for dinner. That
couldn't wait. Then I would notice the dirty dishes,
which I had better finish before tonight's dinner. Then
the phone would ring.
Then
it would be time to pick the kids up from school.
All
I know is that when I go to bed at night, whatever is
done – whether half-way or completely, I consider it
finished. Until the next day when I get to start all
over.
Marlene
Cullen faces unfinished tasks daily in Petaluma, CA
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